Motivation Letter thing

 My motivation letter to me, in the future maybe.

What is the most important thing in life? For me, it’s the Self. Having a Self means that you can interact with the world. The ability to see, walk, breathe, eat, and do everything you wanted to do. Though life can be a little bit unfair at times, I think that through that unfairness comes the spice of life. I’m just gonna ramble about how I became content with my life currently in this post. So, if you are curious, read along.

Well, there once was a moment in life when I feel like the world was coming to and end. Well, not really, but I was pretty down nonetheless. Changing school isn’t as easy as you think. Yes, bullying is everywhere. Man, what a crybaby I was. That one time is when I transferred school on my 6^th grade of primary. I don’t know anyone in the class, and I feel like my class”mates” were looking at me like some kinda funny person. The thing just keeps happening for a whole semester. It made me aphatetic, self-hurting, and a generally depressed person. But you know what? It doesn’t matter anymore. It was just one time of an individualization, where as Jung put it, the integration of my shadows, which is those apathetic, self-hurting, untrusting aspects of my Self. And now I can control them for some extent. It made me a generally better person.

Bullying wasn’t only the bad thing that happened that time, I also encountered the dreaded betrayal. Well, I didn’t know why, but I think they just don’t want to play with me anymore but to the little young me, man was it a big crush. It made me untrusting for a while, that is, until I found someone I can relate and share stuff to again. Betrayal definitely changed how I view people, but I think its for the better. Now I haven’t got any awful conversations and we kinda respect each other while having good distance. I definitely made friends that support each other.

Nowadays I don’t contact the people of my dark times, these generally dark and depressing times lasted for a while in middle school too. A psychological horror game, called Cry of Fear, made me view these times under a different light, but it kinda makes the bad experiences even worse. I started having suicidal thought, more self-hurt, but it didn’t last long after I found a new, trusted friend. Well, it stared with us just sharing a game, but it grew to a wider and trusting relationship. I regard that guy as my best friend, and I gotta thank him for pulling me out of this mess.

The recent thing that happened to me for retrospecting my dark times was me reading Aion by Jung. Well, not reading per se but I was watching a condensed explanation of the contents in the book. The book opened my eyes in various means and gave me new insights in life spiritually, and mentally. If you have time, you should also read that book. It will be beneficial for you and your Self. Lots of the concepts in that book that I have understood have helped me a lot in my thinking of what I feel living in this world, and it gave me hope as to what will happen in the future, honestly.

Now, if you want a summary, I can give you one. Its nothing much, as I just wanted to say that your past experiences shape what you are currently. Sure, it can be better, but I think there’s gonna be a reason why it happened that way. Be content and hope for the better. Just do your life like you want it to be. If it doesn’t happen then, it might happen now. The small things in life is what makes it better.